Monday, May 4, 2009
Anxious waiting in a hospital waiting room....typing on a borrowed laptop....friends dropping by to encourage....standing in cafeteria lines for another cup of mediocre coffee.....pacing down long white halls....jumping up each time the desk phone rings....
The facilities may be new and improved, but it was all eerily familiar.
One year later, and here we are again.
Waiting to heal, waiting to know, waiting for things to get better.
Waiting for broken things to be fixed. (Soooooo many broken things to be fixed.)
Waiting to go home.
As the anniversary of Katherine's AVM rupture approached, I did something I've not done before:
I read through all the blogs in chronological order.
I have to tell you, that was a pretty intense trip for me.
It was also a little embarrassing. There were few entries I wasn't tempted to tinker with....several I'd just like to delete. So far, I've resisted the temptation. (But I'm not making any promises.)
In spite of my own insecurities, however, the suggestion continues to be made that some of the entries be compiled for print. I have no idea whether or not that is an actual possibility. Actually, during this time without a laptop, I have been contemplating whether or not this might be my exit cue. Has this sharing of personal stories and meditations run its natural course?
I would like to ask for your help as we consider what the future holds. It would be very helpful to know which blogs were the most meaningful to you. My powers of discernment are not very great; some of the ones of which I felt the least embarrassed received the fewest comments. (And vice versa.) So I would love to get some feedback from you.
I'm not techno-savvy enough to figure out how to take an internet poll. So I just invite you to hit "comment" and share with me the 2 or 3 posts that spoke to you the most.
OKAY....this invitation is also for people like me, who would not have been able to figure out how to do something like this before the necessity of emergency. So I'll try to walk you through it:
1. Hit "comments" at the bottom of this post.
2. Under "Choose an identity," enter your google account (gmail, etc.) if you have one. If you do not have a google account, hit "sign up here."
3. Type in your existing email and password. (2x)
4. Under "Display name" you can put your real name or a fake one...I don't care.
5. Try to decipher the squiggly letters under "Word Verification" and type them in.
6. Check "Terms of Service."
7. Hit "continue."
At this point, I believe you should be able to post comments. If you got the word thing wrong, they will give you another chance.
(Note for dummies like me: You are not setting up a gmail account...just using your regular email. If you are not comfortable using your real name, please don't. Just make up a "nom de plume" like "HotMama," for instance.)
As always, I thank you for your faithful support....especially now that we're waiting again.